"If I could do anything that would make you happier, what would it be?"

"..to be more understanding."

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Stretch Marks

"Relationship is more important than being 'right'. &People are more important than proving points."

Look who's growing up and finally realizing the meaning of such sayings :).

Sweet Surprises

Attitude and perspective really do weigh a ton. They change worlds. In a matter of days, it seems as though my desperate prayers (and requests for others' prayers) for God to rearrange my surroundings to conform to my liking has changed virtually NOTHING exterior but has instead recreated my entire outlook. It hasn't been a magical, snap-of-the-finger type of transformation; it's one of those things wherein you can't really point out a specific day or moment when/where the intrinsic change occured. I guess God just delicately worked in my heart daily so that I would see life, along with all the difficulties, differently. The shift leaves me feeling more hopeful of my troubles at work, with school, with finances, and with certain inconveniences inflicted by others. The rough complaints are slowly being drowned out by more thankfulness and even some good ol' patience.

To top it all off, I just found out that my scheduler gave me more hours this month! And my dad is giving me odd jobs for the office to complete on my own time..with pay! And my roomie got her schedule changed so we could attend Bible Study together on Wednesday nights! :) Oh, such sweet, sweet surprises He brings.

Alas, we meet again.

Tumblr wasn't exactly meeting my needs, so I have decided to come crawling back home. It's 2am on Sunday morn so I really should get some rest. Just wanted to state that the severity of my ignorance has only heightened during my absence, while the goodness and grace of the Almighty has enveloped me that much more.

Though this is none of my doing, I have found myself to be more capable of mercy, quietness, and altogether surrender in recent days. Amidst strife, the Lord has revealed the hope I have in Him--that despite my waywardness, He would still pursue me with persistence and win me over with his stubborn love. And here I am, broken still yet feeling more complete and more at peace than ever. I now know how it is to walk through fire and not get burned :). Thank you, Lord.