D-day?

-Sarah-bong late night sesh
-Strongholds devotion
-Confirmation e-mail


Update later.

This battle.

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A certain bubbly De Guzman peeled me like an onion last night. With a few words and hugs, she had me telling all (or as much as I could in the 5min slot we had while the people around us were distracted with e/o). Isn't it wonderful how people who love you can see past all your false pretenses? I love her and, boy, do I miss her. Not a lot of people know the things we've gone through and are going through.

This was just one out of a few interesting events that took place on Valentine's Day :).

Fastforward?

In all my favorite books, movies, memories, and even current situations, I'd like to use this feature. I just want to get to the good parts already. It's too much work and suspense leading up to the goods. However, I know my heavenly Father won't allow me to forfeit the blessing of each hardship and every dull moment that gets us all from one pleasant season to the next.

I'm reminded of a story I recently read about a place in Texas that could only be reached by passing through a river first. After conquering the rugged road, a steep hill would spit one out at the mouth of a river. By the water stood a sign that read, "Yes, you must drive through the river. There is no other way."

There are no shortcuts this time; no fastforward button. No cheeky excuses to be let off the hook. I have hit my last wall and I really do have to go through all of this.

rai santos and my front door

A certain ninja returned mom's cup and left me a blackberry IZZE.

Thanks, Raiary! :) Miss you too.

guh, i am a puddle of goo.

How can I describe in a short list of words how quickly my heart has become enslaved to those green eyes?

But I hate sitting still. And I hate this silence.

Going home from work, I decided to see if Steph wanted to get her ears pierced. That she did. We, having needed time alone, caught up on the drive. I heard myself relaying countless stories of my latest distractions and giving every excuse possible for not allowing myself to really absorb everything that's happening. If I absorb then I'll have to feel. And at this point in life, I'd rather do anything than have to feel. My life on the surface is fun. It's exciting and ever-changing. Why can't I just keep going without having to deal with this? Thankfully, she told me all the things I've needed but have been avoiding to hear. I need to pull through with my initial decision to surrender and let God take me where He pleases. I need to sit still, even in the silence. I just need to trust.

So, the night is coming to a close. I just need to make a decision before I allow myself to have another incredible day tomorrow. I either move forward or keep running in place. Yes, running in place is pointless but at least I know where I'll end up. That's such a lame excuse. Tell me why it's so difficult for me to be a normal girl who enjoys having feelings and taking risks.